tl;cr meme

[manufactured]

1. Post a top-level with your character(s)!
2. Respond to other people's characters with your characters!
3. Tl;dr about your characters' thoughts on theirs! Or be concise, I'm not going to tell you what to do.
4. Scream in mutual joy/horror/disgust/delight/confusion at where your CR has gone!

Comments

[jurai]

There's not much to go off of I know but thoughts on Crow and Rean anyway?

[motiv8]

get out of my inbox





BUT OK SERIOUSLY just. drags hands down face. Rean has a lot of feelings about Crow and the amount of them that conflict is becoming pretty uncomfortable for him.

Crow's the best friend Rean's ever had that wasn't... y'know... his own sister. Hell, in some ways he breathes easier around Crow than he ever could around Raina, because Crow's a little (okay, a lot) less high-strung. He started off so on edge around senpai, but these days it's pretty easy for him to just open up and be himself, for everything that entails. Which is wonderful, but also kind of terrifying, because Rean's not really used to opening himself up to other people. Being around Crow makes him genuinely happy, though, so he's more than willing to take the risks that come alongside this whole opening up thing.

Rean trusts Crow with his life, and he looks up to him immensely. Rean really doesn't see the "mess" that Crow sees. Sure, Crow's a gambler and a flirt and prone to flights of fancy, which Rean's more than happy to call him out for. But as far as Rean's concerned, more than any of that, Crow's a strong, dependable person who has his life together and everything figured out. He knows damn well he has Crow on more than a bit of a pedestal, though. He has a feeling there's a lot more to Crow than Crow's let him see, and he's always interested to look in whenever Crow does let that mask drop, but so far there hasn't been much to shake his admiration.

...of course. There are all those pesky past life memories to worry about. And OH BOY, ARE THEY CAUSING HIM SOME TROUBLE RIGHT NOW.

Rean doesn't have all the pieces of this puzzle. He doesn't even have half the pieces. But what he does have tells him that 1. Past!Crow betrayed his trust, 2. Past!Crow hurt him terribly enough to make him genuinely angry, which doesn't happen often, and 3. Neither of those pieces match up with the Crow he knows in this life and all the memories he has that do match up perfectly. Combining with that feeling that there's a lot more to Crow, Rean can't help but wonder what all there is that he doesn't know. Should he trust Crow as deeply as he does? He wants to, to the point where he's lied to himself and made excuses for his memories for months because he didn't want to believe Crow would hurt him. And yet, here he is, where it's not really possible to keep that up and he doesn't know what to think.

And to top all of this off... yeah, Rean has a massive crush. If just opening up on a friend level was kind of terrifying, for this weeb who's really just figuring out this whole genuine friendship thing, romance is absolutely the scariest thing imaginable. Especially when he's already unsure about how his memories and this life align. ESPECIALLY when he's already struggling with his own unhealthy tendencies to cling, his inability to handle the people he loves getting hurt, and... oh, yeah, the fact that he's pretty sure past!Crow died.

He's riding the struggle bus pretty hard right now. He's scared of anything happening to this Crow, because he's afraid he'll lose control of himself way worse than he already has if anything does. He wants to pull away to make sure he can't be the one that hurts Crow, but at the same time, he wants to cling and be the one to protect him from anything that could hurt him. He looks up to and trusts Crow, but also worries that he doesn't really know Crow at all.

tl;dr THEIR ENTIRE RELATIONSHP IS "WILL THEY OR WON'T THEY" ON LIKE EVERY LEVEL. I'm going to die in this hell, and I'm okay with that.