tl;cr meme

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1. Post a top-level with your character(s)!
2. Respond to other people's characters with your characters!
3. Tl;dr about your characters' thoughts on theirs! Or be concise, I'm not going to tell you what to do.
4. Scream in mutual joy/horror/disgust/delight/confusion at where your CR has gone!

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[jurai]

Well, here we go. This is gonna be quite the TLDR

Rean is pretty much his other half in all meanings of the word. The straight man to his ridiculousness, his partner-in-crime, his best friend, and the girl on the playground he pulls the pigtails of all at once. It's safe to say Crow's never been this close with anyone, even including people from his hometown, and it shows in just how much he seeks out Rean's company. He wants to be by him, not just be entertaining while in the presence of him.

His current situation with Rean, however, makes this a pretty awkward moment for him. By now, he knows that his past life self was not a good person. All the pieces are falling into place and he's starting to see just how two faced his past life was. He has no idea if he's faked everything back in that life (thanks, vague memories) or if there was someone else pulling the strings of fate, but facts are facts and Crow is trying to work out what might transferred over, if anything.

It does worry him, though, that he was apparently so easy to turn on someone he respects now, and probably back then. Rean's not the only one who feels like he doesn't know who Crow really is. Crow's feeling that a lot about himself, too, and that maybe the distance Rean has put between them is for the better. After all, there's no proper Hallmark card to announce you were a terrorist. If only he weren't so damn addicted to his presence, it would be a lot easier. But Rean always catches his attention and no matter what, he's gonna give that boy the time of day.

It's also something that he's afraid of losing, too. That his past life has come back to now sabotage what he'd hoped was his life starting to get on track. He's felt happier in the past few months at Recolle than he ever has since mid-high school, and the idea of going back to that is something that keeps him up at night. Losing Elliot, or Eren, but especially Rean.


And that's just the friendship part of the deal. Let's not even get into Crow's romantic life (or let's)

Because YEAH, Crow's hella got it bad for Rean, and wishes that the boy could at least see how great of a person he is for himself, especially when he's everything Crow's ever wanted. His typical 'playboy' attitude shields a lot of his emotions from Rean's view, to his benefit, but it's also making it incredibly frustrating to try and flirt with. Rean's someone you have to tell outright, and telling outright is something Crow's having trouble finding himself doing as well.

Combine that with the past memories and how he believes your soul can retain some of your previous self's attitude...he trust Rean, and he wants to trust himself. But he doesn't know if there's something like past life's Crow hidden somewhere in him, and the idea of breaking Rean like that is a real possibility and fear to him.

All in all, Crow's a mess of feelings right now that'll only get more and more emotional but DEEP DOWN HIS KOKORO BEATS FOR THIS WEEB