He's seen past her. A good part of it, anyway, and that's made rather apparent as her dark brown eyes widen and she just finds herself wanting to cry all over again because he's right.
She does care.
It's why she came out here in the first place when she could have just went to a better school elsewhere. Raina had the credentials for it, not to mention the paid scholarships. But she threw away those chances, and for what?
... But she can't say it was selfless. She did it for her own selfish, unspoken reasons. It was simple, really: she just didn't want to be alone. Having no real friends left that scar on her. Made her reliant when she shouldn't have to be.
That thought makes her bury her face in her hands, not wanting him to see her cry more than he already had to, even if he can probably hear it. It's only between choked sobs that she finally finds her voice again. ]
I can't do it, though! I'm not the strong person that I've been pretending to be this whole time... and even if I care, it isn't enough for me to stop seeing people as my enemies.
[ She wipes her face with a napkin and tries to pull herself together, smiling at him bitterly. ]
Anyway, this conversation is over. I'll go back to acting normal, so just forget I said anything.
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[ Ah.
He's seen past her. A good part of it, anyway, and that's made rather apparent as her dark brown eyes widen and she just finds herself wanting to cry all over again because he's right.
She does care.
It's why she came out here in the first place when she could have just went to a better school elsewhere. Raina had the credentials for it, not to mention the paid scholarships. But she threw away those chances, and for what?
... But she can't say it was selfless. She did it for her own selfish, unspoken reasons. It was simple, really: she just didn't want to be alone. Having no real friends left that scar on her. Made her reliant when she shouldn't have to be.
That thought makes her bury her face in her hands, not wanting him to see her cry more than he already had to, even if he can probably hear it. It's only between choked sobs that she finally finds her voice again. ]
I can't do it, though! I'm not the strong person that I've been pretending to be this whole time... and even if I care, it isn't enough for me to stop seeing people as my enemies.
[ She wipes her face with a napkin and tries to pull herself together, smiling at him bitterly. ]
Anyway, this conversation is over. I'll go back to acting normal, so just forget I said anything.