[Xiaolang stays quiet as "Syaoran" debates what to say, recognizing that conflicted expression upon his face. It's the same that usually crosses his own whenever these memories come to mind, when he doesn't want to talk about them, and maybe he should take some solace in the fact that his other self liked it no more than he did. And so when he poses that question, with the tinge of regret in his voice, Xiaolang knows. He knows what he did was wrong.

Spoilers, Xiaolang, you don't actually know shit about any of this

He purses his lips, not entirely eager to recount it himself, but... there was no point being dodgy about it. "Syaoran" no doubt knew all about it.]

... You were trying to take the Clow Cards from her, by force. Even when she said no, you still shoved her, and tried to steal them from her-- I don't know if you went any further than that, but the fact that you dared to even touch her like that is unacceptable.

You also called her 'pathetic', when she couldn't protect herself from any danger. You put her down, saying you didn't think she was worthy to catch the cards, even when she went out of her way to help her.

[He can feel the anger seething up again, having to bring these memories to mind, but he tries to tamper it down.]

... I also know that some point down the line, you came to your senses and learned to love and appreciate her for who she is. But honestly, after the way you acted towards her, it says a lot about her kindness that she returned those feelings to begin with.