[Nothing Kei said is actually incorrect, but Heigo's still amused by how confidently he used the process of elimination to determine Heigo's reason for playing roles and wearing masks. He's even a bit impressed that Kei was able to eliminate egoism right off the bat, given that haughtiness and snobbery play a large part in his public veneer (and, if he's honest, have their part in his true self as well.)]
It isn't so much out of an urge to hide, either, or fear that I can't be accepted as I am. More that I want to keep my options open at all times, as much as possible, and only ever being my truest self would limit that. [He shrugs idly.] Authenticity isn't worth the constant struggle when people will still interpret me however they see fit.
[Heigo's words are a tricky blend of truth and misdirection, but one thing is very obvious - he doesn't believe any of this as casually as he wants it to appear. Some of these beliefs are laced with bitter unhappiness that could only have come from negative experience.]
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[Nothing Kei said is actually incorrect, but Heigo's still amused by how confidently he used the process of elimination to determine Heigo's reason for playing roles and wearing masks. He's even a bit impressed that Kei was able to eliminate egoism right off the bat, given that haughtiness and snobbery play a large part in his public veneer (and, if he's honest, have their part in his true self as well.)]
It isn't so much out of an urge to hide, either, or fear that I can't be accepted as I am. More that I want to keep my options open at all times, as much as possible, and only ever being my truest self would limit that. [He shrugs idly.] Authenticity isn't worth the constant struggle when people will still interpret me however they see fit.
[Heigo's words are a tricky blend of truth and misdirection, but one thing is very obvious - he doesn't believe any of this as casually as he wants it to appear. Some of these beliefs are laced with bitter unhappiness that could only have come from negative experience.]